2015 was a big year for me in terms of my writing, my goals, my journey of discovering more of who my 40-something self is. I made significang changes in my perspective, my attitude and my actions. Family, personal and career desires became clearer and I took steps in those directions. Opportunities presented themselves.
I made a promise to myself to listen to my heart and came to the conclusion that I really like me. And I like where I'm headed.
Yesterday morning, January 1, 2016, I woke up and practiced my daily yoga and meditation. I felt wonderful, joyful and happy. What a great way to start the new year! However, within moments, remnants of 2015 greeted me with a morning argument/misunderstanding with a loved one. What the heck happened?
I sulked for a few hours until I identified my role in the situation and what a better response would be - part of my 2015 realignment. Before I could put those thougths to action I received a message that a friend and coworker was in grave condition at the hospital losing her battle with Cancer. The tugs on my heart pulled in a second direction.
This morning I went to the hospital with my husband to visit her and say our good-byes. It brought up feelings for me similar to when I visited by mother and sister before they passed away. But I also recalled so many bright memories with this coworker, including sharing dreams for the future, collaborating on ways to change the world for the better, and an agreement to be good to ourselves because "life is so short". I am so grateful that our paths in this world crossed for so many years.
Although I tried to hold back the tears this morning, some did sneak out. Between watching lives of friends, family and coworkers be cut short, and the many unpleasant news stories that arise almost daily, I'm not sure how much more I need to see and feel to commit, once and for all, to taking chances on me and just living the life I want to live. We don't have control over the events in our lives, but we do control how we respond to them.
My realignment has been readjusted. Firmly.
I wish you all the strength to make the realignments you wish for in order to live the life you desire. We all have so many supports around us, but the biggest supporter we need is ourselves. May you set intentions for the best year yet. Identify your goals and dreams. Take risks. Embrace change. Take care of yourself. Fill your life with heart-happy events and experiences.
Happy New Year!